Ahhh....crap.

A bunch of shit happened today... to be quick, it ended in my mother kicking me out of the house.

Dylan spent the night last night and when we got up this morning, my mom was complaining and telling me to put an ad in the newspaper for making websites. Since I don't know how to make websites, I just corrected her that that would be a bad thing to advertise. My stepfather started in, acting like I wasn't going to do anything to try and get a job, even though I tried to explain to him that I was just correcting her. It was getting obnoxious, so I just went upstairs. I usually do that because I hate fighting with my parents, but they followed me up and continued.

My mom asked Dylan to go downstairs and she started in on me, calling me selfish and ungrateful. I tried to explain to her that I'm trying to get a job and such, but she wouldn't listen. Since it's bothered me for the longest time, I asked her why she hid the fact that I was bisexual, and she laughed at me when I told her how hard it was. Finally it escalated to a point where I told her to fuck off, and she told me to get out.

While I was packing up my stepdad kept coming upstairs and saying "Hurry up, get the fuck out," and my mom went downstairs to call the financial aid and tell them she wasn't paying anymore.

I'm now at Dylan's friend's house, since I have no where else to go. I can't go and finish college now; I can't afford it. My life is pretty fucked up now. I don't know what to do anymore, and I don't have a relationship with either of my parents any more. I'm so mad, but I'm so upset at the same time...seems like nothing goes right any more...

I wish I had a stronger dose of antidepressants right now...

--Kiki